Night Time Tears

\                                    I cried again last night.
                                                                         Don't ask me, "Why?"
                                     I doubt if I could tell
                                                                          a reason for I, myself,
                                     am not completely sure.
                                                                          Was it finding his house
                                     empty of not only him,
                                                                           but objects of memories
                                     that will never be returned?  Was it sixth out of seven
                                                                            although I gave it my all?
                                     Was it suffering the staying
                                                                            home from auditions because
                                     the fear of rejection was too high?
                                                                             I cried again last night,
                                     and probably tonight, my pillow
                                                                             will catch more tears.
                                     Having control is what we all
                                                                              seek, but life's circumstances
                                     really have the wand that
                                                                               either strengthens or weakens
                                     one's ability to resists.